Existential angst is a bitch: eat ice cream.

I don’t want people to think that I don’t like my job. I do like it; the
people I work with are great, fun people, and the work itself is not
boring–just intellectually uninspiring and unstimulating.

I just worry that when the time comes to leave this job (and it will,
inevitably–and sooner rather than later), will I be able to find work
that pays just as well as this one? The problem is that this job really
IS a dead-end occupation. The things I do here really do not translate
to other occupations–my job is extremely task-specific. And at this
time, I cannot afford a paycut–I have way too many freaking bills and
credit cards to pay. I’ve made a lot of poor financial choices a few
years ago, which limited my freedom and my options.

So, in a way, I am become like a finch on the galapagos–overspecialized
in a declining habitat. I feel endangered. THAT is the cause of my
angst and fustration.

In other news, we tried the “Toasted Coconut Sesame Brittle” ice cream
from Hagen Daaz. Oh my freaking GAWD, it was so good! It is the Zen of
ice cream. All the flavors (toasted coconut, sesame, ginger, the sweet
cream) are all distinct, and perfectly harmonious with each other. It
is music in the mouth. It is a delightful culinary experience, it
really is. Its better than chocolate. It is better than sex, too.

Obviously, it is definitely my new favorite ice cream, which sucks
because its only around for a limited time. Damn you, Hagen Daaz.

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12 thoughts on “Existential angst is a bitch: eat ice cream.

  1. I completely feel your pain in the one my dear. I often wonder why they don’t give better career advice in High school and college. If I personally was the career counselor I would say to all students, “Sure I can see why you would interested in that and your skills would be excellent in it. But you do realize the max you will make is like $45,000 annually. Whereas if you chose this career which is decidingly more dull, but insanely lucractive you could make $100k annually which means tropical vacations on your personal yacht would occur regularly.”
    I agree that ice cream is an excellent cure all. Shoe shopping is another (albeit more expensive) alternative as well.

  2. I hear you loud and clear! Spending 7 years as an at home mom qualifies you for very little other than understanding patience and the big picture a little better. I’m sure as bright and smart as you are, you will find the right place and the money will follow. I will avoid trying this new potential addiction and be grateful it is only available for a limited time. Enjoy it while it lasts!!!

  3. I hear you loud and clear! Spending 7 years as an at home mom qualifies you for very little other than understanding patience and the big picture a little better. I’m sure as bright and smart as you are, you will find the right place and the money will follow. I will avoid trying this new potential addiction and be grateful it is only available for a limited time. Enjoy it while it lasts!!!

  4. toasted coconut: bah.

    having lived in Greece and not experienced true greek food since, I understand your angst.

    just not for coconut.

  5. You need to find yourself a conservation expert – ring the WWF, they’ll sort you out a new job if you’re an endangered species.

    Puss

  6. Angel: ooh shoes! Unfortunately I don’t know anything about shoes. After all, my favorite pair are what Brian calls “ugly ass bowling shoes”.

    Pool: being a stay at home mom sounds kinda fun….excepting the mom part. 🙂
    Well, some are better suited for it than others!

    Puss: cheeky! WWF, indeed! I’m partial to Greenpeace, myself, they have cool boats.

  7. oh man. i SO hear you. i want change desperately right now… but i have NO idea how to get that change. my confidence is not high that i could do anything else… nor do i necessarily want to do anything else. (other than writing, i mean)

    i just don’t know what to do or where to go. seriously… i feel ya, friend. i really do.

  8. Rachel,

    You are probably by far the most articulate finch in the Galapagos. Maybe the answer will be to work at different jobs that fill different needs, and in the process, keep it interesting.

    That flavor sounds like a Must Try to me. I LOVE coconut, ginger, and sesame, all of them. If they had asked me to invent a flavor, this would be it.

    Thanks for the heads up.

  9. bob; I think I like your wife!

    Martha: life sucks, sometimes. But I guess we just suck it up and wait for tomorrow, cuz the answers will come someday, right?

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